I don't know why but last night I felt really afraid and terrified.

Sometimes you get this feeling in your gut, where you feel like something is really wrong.  That's how I felt last night after my friends left the house.  I don't know, I felt like something was wrong, like someone I knew got hurt or is going to get hurt or is in some kind of trouble. I kinda got that feeling again somewhere in the middle of the night, I woke up in a cold sweat and was looking around my room for something, but the funny thing was that I was still half asleep, and I could feel myself looking around and mumbling words.

I could just be imagining things, but I felt so afraid...

Well something else weird is happening to me too.  I don't really know how to put this....uhm...I guess you could say that the pervertedness inside of me is dimming.  I just...can't seem to get all in that "feeling" anymore.  You know, everybody once i a while thinks about something "dirty" or "hot" that makes em wanna just go "unf" or something.  Yeah well I...I was thinking about something, but then something in my head and heart just couldn't do it.  I felt like there was nothing good or fun about it.  I couldn't do anything.  I'm trying to make this sound serious but to you it probably sounds funny.  *sigh*....thoughts about sex and stuff..it's just....not the same right now since my break up...I don't even want to think about sex let alone consider it...or self pleasure.  It's like ...I just can't feel anything good of it anymore.  I sometimes feel myself cringe at the thought now...and kinda wanna barf.

I hope it's a phase..if ever I fall in love again I don't want to barf or get cold feet during something like that haha.

Today...I don't know...I feel very out of place.

Agito